During this beautiful holiday season, I recently felt that everyone in my life was stupid.  Like there was a conspiracy somewhere and I was the lucky one who got tested on just how much stupidity I could handle.  I was losing that battle.  It was when I realized that my children had also lost all their intelligence that I decided that perhaps the issue just MIGHT be with someone other than everyone else in the world.  I hate it when it all comes back to me.

  I can, for the most part, handle pretty large amounts of stress.  I’ve worked hard at creating a balance in my life so that it doesn’t create a problem for me or those around me.  But this time it got away from me.  The signs were probably there, but I was in a Scarlett O’Hara groove (“I’ll think about it tomarrah…”) and didn’t acknowledge it.  Sometimes I know the signs are there but I just can’t see them – a little like my son’s dashboard which flashes an ominous “INFO DISPLAY” message, but the LCD on that display is broken.  Well, it’s trying to tell us something but who knows what it is – so we just ignore it and keep going.  Or sometimes the signs are very obvious and I still ignore them.  Like my “Low Fuel” light glaring at me.  Funny, those things are telling the truth, as I discovered when I had to be pushed across the intersection where I stalled out.  I was on my way to the gas station, but had to make just a couple more stops first….

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